Its been so long since I've put on headphones and allowed my ears to devour the magical sounds of instruments, to fill my soul with creative connections to the art of music. I used to live with my headphones on or my speakers plugged in. Enough was never enough for me, and don't even get me started on the automatic movements my body would display on view for the universe to see when a certain song played. Once upon a time I was a dancer, I was a singer(only in front of certain people hahaha), I was a performer. Those days are long gone now, those days of complete freedom and expression are a part of my past that I miss dearly.
Tonight as I type at 1:29 am, I am reviving an old habit, an old love, an old friend. As each song plays so does a memory. My eyelids are starting to blink uncontrollably from a long day of my life as a working mom. This seems to be the perfect way to end a productive beautiful day in San Jose.
Note to self and other working moms: do not let go of your first love again. No matter what it may be, make time for yourself to unwind and enjoy what makes you happy. Its very important and healthy for you to still feel like you and enjoy (some) of the things that ignite that flame of independence and satisfaction.
As a working mother, we wear so many hats on a day to day basis and rarely make time for ourselves, so even if it means staying up a little later than usual, or getting up a little earlier, you will not regret it.
So I'm finally off to bed, and I will leave you with the last song that I intend to play. Enjoy, or don't, whatever...lol good night.
